answering the call

i always think of something smart to say here during the most inappropriate time. like when im in the bathroom, doing whatever 'task' is needed to be done in there. or right before i go to bed, after switching the light off when all of a sudden this tiny light bulb above my head mysteriously flickers. yup it doesnt get to light as often as i want it to, and only flickers when it does. so there, i get all mentally blocked and blanked while typing this.

speaking of typing, you'll notice that ive been blogging quite often lately. and you're thinking, 'this dude has got nothing better to do than broadcast unsolicited meaningless thoughts'. getting me to think 'hey, this reader has got nothing better to do than painstakingly read this unsolicited meaningless thought disguised as a blog that i just wrote...'. but no, dont go.. i appreciate you reading this. and besides, dont tell me i didnt warn you!

and while we're in the topic of appreciating (and yes, this blog has somehow managed to develop a topic..), you've got to start being thankful for the little things. you say 'now you've got me confused, ryandude. just some previous blogs ago, you were complaining about the little things..'. yes i know that, duh.. and i wasnt complaining, i said i was just bothered that im bothered with them. anyway, there were a lot of things that i missed for quite some time. yes we often argue. yes we often take shots at one another whilst a salesman pretends not to hear so as not to create an awkward situation (mind you, this is done in good humor, the arguing that is). yes we expect so much from one another, expecting nothing less than what an inmate expects when a soap drops (minus the sexual message this comparison denotes). but this (whatever it is. 'chemistry' perhaps?) is what makes us tick. i love the fact that we can set aside our differences even for a while (like 10 minutes before we finally lash out at one another again..) when the situation calls for it. and what situation/s may this be, you would ask. like when i get thirsty playing when suddenly i realize i forgot my freaking freebie water tumbler and you're the only one i can ask for irrigation... hey, i made up for that. i gave you movie passes remember?? see what im doing, im even arguing with myself just writing about our bickerings (again, writing this is done in good humor, if ever there is such a term..). or for a more serious situation. i know that we can settle everything, cause thats how we are. we've laid a strong foundation over time that we can get over even the most complicated hurdle that comes our way. i should know, been there.. (speaking of which, whats with the 'i never say im sorry' thingy? didnt you hear me during the time when we blah-blah and when this stuff happened and blah-blah-blah.) *note: specifics were edited for best results.

so there, i appreciate everything you've done for me. dont ever think im never sorry when i screw up, cause i am. though i may not say it as often as you want me to, torturing me in fact just to blurt it out a couple of times, but it was meant when said. i appreciate it when i dont want to talk about something, you dont squeeze it out of me. i appreciate it that when i ask you to talk to me, you just do. i mostly appreciate it that even only through the magical technology of text, we've managed to be a source of cheering-type of help to each other (i notice a slight irony to this. hmmm..but thats another topic). in times of need, we've been able to deliver despite our quarrelsome bond. no matter how 'little' this sounds, its huge in my book. because when it does matter, this little thing doesnt get me bothered.



i miss these two gays err ladies...